Why I’m a glutton for punishment — and what I’m doing about it…

Apparently, I enjoy making things difficult for myself.
Like, all the time.

I take on too much. I rarely say no. And I have a special talent for turning any simple project into a full-scale life overhaul or transformation.

I can’t help seeing the bigger picture — all the problems to solve, all the possibilities to chase. I go all in, and the finish line becomes infinite.

This perfection-seeking tendency is sometimes crippling. I wonder why I’ve taken all of this on. I stall, procrastinate, and then have to work doubly hard as the deadline looms — often with many people depending on me. No turning back now.

I can’t turn it off. Many say I should, but I just can’t.

But through the late nights and the wobble of self-doubt, something amazing happens. The result is bigger than I imagined. And it’s wonderful.

The things I’ve achieved in my life, I still pinch myself over.

The truth is, fear doesn’t stop me — it dares me. The bigger it feels, the more I want to prove to myself that I can do it.

But now I’m working on the balance.

Because burnout is real, and boundaries matter. It’s taken me a long time, especially since becoming a mum, to accept my limitations. You simply can’t do everything — and that’s okay. I have another very important job to do: loving and nurturing my daughter.

I never want to lose the tenacity that makes me fearlessly dive into things. I just want to be more selective about which mountains I climb.

So less of a glutton, and perhaps more of a connoisseur of challenge?

Anyway, we’ll see how it goes. If you’re reading this thinking, “this is so me,” please know it’s not a flaw — it’s your superpower. That fire is a gift. It may just need adjusting for the chapter you’re in. 🤍